Abide in the Father
Driving home in utter exhaustion, I just wanted to bypass the traffic and get home as quickly as possible. I had directed, answered and served for the past ten hours, barely with the opportunity to sit down and I was ready to go. I was called on to manage care plans for people, who are having a difficult time dealing with life-changing events they are faced with. I was re-directing emotions and harmful pursuits yet maintaining professional composure with a smile. And now, I was tired. Serving others does somehow strengthen me, and I admittedly experience joy and fulfillment. Through my day, I am trusting that God is speaking, directing and pursuing each one of those I have interacted with in my day, to fulfill His Master Plan. Yet today, I was tired. I expended the very last ounce of energy I had, I left the hospital to walk to my car, which seemed much farther away today. I didn’t hear anything around me, not a siren or car drive by, I felt as if I was sleep-walking to my car. After I sat in my car, I asked the Lord for the strength to get home and honestly asked if He could drive me home!
I just wanted to get home quickly, to recuperate. On my journey home, I was nearly hit by three different vehicles. Somehow these drivers could not see me in my little grey car as the sun was setting. Three different instances I felt the Holy Spirit quicken my spirit to move, or slow down, or to look out and speed up. I began to get angry because all I really wanted to do was to go home, to a place of rest. (As restful as an evening can be with small children with homework, dinner, bedtime and cleaning. I needed a second wind or boost from the Lord to finish the day!) Nonetheless, I was ready to face it.
As I was driving, I felt invisible. “Do you not see me?” I’m calling out to drivers as they pass by. They weren’t paying attention on the highway, maybe wanted to get home just as much as I did. Although my worthlessness was growing with each near-collision as I continued to drive. My thoughts were racing, “Lord, do you not see me? I have served all day, through my exhaustion until I have nothing left. I have seen destructive actions and I tried to be the peacemaker, yet I am dismissed and forgotten on my way home!”
I’m sure I’m not the only one who has ever felt like that. You’re angry, hurt and want to run away. Even Elijah on his journey, when he was running from God's plan, in his own fear (1 Kings 19). You’ve prayed, you’ve waited, you’ve served and obeyed, and now it’s as if you were overlooked, forgotten, dismissed, pushed to the side – or even thrown to the next block; you have to climb back just to start again. Can I tell you that in my moment of rejection, I heard the Lord say “Yes! I see you. Yes, I know you. Yes, I know what you’ve done and will do. You are not forgotten by me – but the world does not define you. You are my child, You are beautiful. I made you and I love you.”
"Do not waste your energy in despair and discouragement, look up and hold your head up. I remember you and the plans I have for you. Plans of faithfulness and growth, plans of life and courage. Do not stop pursuing My Will for your life. Do not stop walking in My ways, keep your eyes on Me. I am your strength, your identity. I will restore you, if you stay in Me. The fight is not over, there is still much work to be done."
How powerful is our Lord! How gracious He is to speak directly into our hearts and turn death into life, mourning into dancing, darkness into Light. May we be encouraged to abide in His presence, hide in His embrace and be strengthened in His Will. He is our Faithful Father and Friend. He will never stop loving, never stop lifting and never give up on bestowing His love into our hearts.
Psalm 34:3-5: “O magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together. I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. The looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed.”
Psalm 105:43: “And he brought forth his people with joy, and his chosen with gladness:”
Deuteronomy 7:6: “For thou art an holy people unto the Lord thy God: the Lord thy God hath chosen thee to be a special people unto himself, above all people that are upon the face of the earth.”
Jeremiah 31:3: “The Lord hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.”
I Timothy 6:12: “Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses.”
2 Samuel 7:22, Psalm 33:12; 34:8, 1 Peter 2:9, Deuteronomy 11:1, Isaiah 40:31, Luke 8:46, Philippians 3:14, 1 Corinthians 7:20, Psalm 100:5, Titus 3:8, John 15: 4,7
In Christ Love,
Patricia Velasquez, PTA, BS, CWCA